Dear readers, (if there are any left still out there)
I am confused, cold, afraid, troubled, conflicted, worrying.
Words from a friend which I weigh heavily when hearing opinions has completely knocked me off balance.
I only obtained some good news this morning (technically last night) but now I'm feeling compeltely distressed instead. I don't know what to do. I don't want to step into the wrong path, not even one step. I don't want to waste time. I need counsel. I don't have much time to make this decision. ARGH!
I just want to yell out REALLY LOUDLY or play my violin with huge pressure on the bow and just grind it, but alas, it's late at night and everyone is sound asleep.
Reality check:
* CFA exam in 4 days, fudge. * I have to contact some ppl tmr, argh. * It is currently way too cold, i'm gonna get frostbite...? * This decision is due in 6 days
Sorry yet another negative post, many people in my position would be overjoyed, wtf is wrong with me? WHY AM I FEELING SO confused and lost?
I wanted to reach for the stars and one day touch them. Right now I'm stuck between decisions that I don't know where they will lead to. I'm afraid that I will have wasted more time and need to take yet another detour to ultimately reach my goal. Why is it taking so long? Why am I not being successful on the first try? I am over-achieving, I stand out, I strive to work hard, is this the stupid thing called fate? Throughout the last few months I've come to realise some of these ordeals are related to elements of "fate" but I still refuse to admit I'm a weakling. Why am I only getting the same amount of recognition when I clearly have done more in the past? Where's my reward for that? Surely I may be asking for too much.
Save me... another friend's suggestion isn't working... I can't meditate... I'm only thinking more and more...
Few things that came across my mind as of recent (though have always really been appearing from time to time):
Social Politics (Especially in friendships)
Fickleness
Lack of commitment to words (i.e. dismissing things easily)
People using and abusing others via words (don't take me for an idiot)
Like I sometimes feel I am either too tolerant or do not take notice of the internal disputes and dislikes within friendship circles. When people reveal to me about these things I am really surprised.
Am I just too optimistic? =D If so I would rather stay the tolerant way I am. Sure we all make crude jokes, but saying them behind someone's back and fully meaning it is really really bad. We must be fair with our comments. How do people get ticked off so easily by all these things? lol, grow up you kids.
I really do believe in talking straight all the time and not needing to make up excuses to people. If only everyone could be honest and straight, that would make the world a much, much better place.
All these "behind the scenes" acts is so silly, trivial, immature and childish. Only say things if you mean them. Heck - if you're gonna snob someone, snob them completely and boldly. Some of you out there know you are committing these moral crimes out there and should just admit you are doing such things and do it full-heartedly.
For those of you out there who are true to yourself, massive THUMBS UP to you! Let's keep this world clean and free of lies and deceit!
Everyone is dying. Each day we are getting nearer and nearer to death. This illness is called "time". There is something chases us - everytime we confront it and fight it head on it runs away from us. We can even wait for it to come and try to grab hold of it but it escapes it. It's call time.
"Time. As I am making this speech, time is ticking away. One by one, grains of sand are passing through an hourglass. Bit by bit, the hand of a clock is moving slowly. So does time exist? Of course it does. Does it ever end? I don't know. Is time important to me? Yes. Is time important to you...?
Time can be used to earn money from work, create unforgettable memories which we treasure and also developing relationships with people. Time is important because it is the sole component to change which can be good or bad. Can you magine what the world would be like if time didn't pass? The television screen would never flicker; the soccer ball that's been kicked would never reach its goal.
There was once a Chinese saying, "One strand of time yields one bar of gold, but one bar of gold cannot buy a strand of time" and it explains how time can be used to produce money, but the money produced from time cannot be used to buy time back. So is time more important than money? We need money to survive and indulge ourselves and we also need time to earn the money. We can't waste all our time working for money, nor can we not spend a single drop of time into working, therefore we must need a balance between the two.
A lot of people today take time for granted because they think they will always have enough of it. Was there any point in your life when you wished you had more time to do something? Did you ever wish that you could go back in time and change something?
Time is a very important object, too mysterious to comprehend and yet too simple to transform. We spend time without thinking in our daily lives. It is not apparent to us that we spend time playing sports, enjoying our hobbies, going out with friends and socialising. We also spend time when we watch television, finishing some homework that's due tomorrow and revising for exams.
In many areas of society today, time is a crucial component to being successful. Examples are usch as the world's athletes competing against the time for sprinting, cycling, swimming. A pack of instant noodles tells us how much time it needs to be filled with boiling water till it is cooked. Mobile phone calls are timed, and the longer the call is, the more money it costs. Everyday, everywhere, time exists in watch faces and clocks and they could even be used to time my speech right now.
Without time, things cannot change. There would not be any advancement, or any progress. Without time, seeds of life may not grow into great trees and a baby would never develop into an adult to experience the world. Time is very important as it can accomplish many things that cannot be exchanged with money.
We must realise that we, as humans, only have a limited amount of time. With that being said, we must make sure that we do not regret for not doing what we wanted to, when there was an opportunity. I sincerely hope that this sacrifice of 4 minutes will allow you to treasure your time in the future and spend it more wisely." - Year 10 English Speech.
I hereby give up on you for the time being, world of adults.
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SIMPLICITY:
15 mins of practise on violin each day! 15 mins of exercise each day! 3 meals a day, no creamy/oily/fatty foods! No junk food! Facebook only for 5 mins each session! No more than 5 logins per day! Make sure you are doing something for the main part - Stay away from MSN/Facebook/Forums/and unfortunately this blog too.
