Feelings are... 110 million (over 9000)

Everyone is dying. Each day we are getting nearer and nearer to death. This illness is called "time". There is something chases us - everytime we confront it and fight it head on it runs away from us. We can even wait for it to come and try to grab hold of it but it escapes it. It's call time.



"Time. As I am making this speech, time is ticking away. One by one, grains of sand are passing through an hourglass. Bit by bit, the hand of a clock is moving slowly. So does time exist? Of course it does. Does it ever end? I don't know. Is time important to me? Yes. Is time important to you...?

Time can be used to earn money from work, create unforgettable memories which we treasure and also developing relationships with people. Time is important because it is the sole component to change which can be good or bad. Can you magine what the world would be like if time didn't pass? The television screen would never flicker; the soccer ball that's been kicked would never reach its goal.

There was once a Chinese saying, "One strand of time yields one bar of gold, but one bar of gold cannot buy a strand of time" and it explains how time can be used to produce money, but the money produced from time cannot be used to buy time back. So is time more important than money? We need money to survive and indulge ourselves and we also need time to earn the money. We can't waste all our time working for money, nor can we not spend a single drop of time into working, therefore we must need a balance between the two.

A lot of people today take time for granted because they think they will always have enough of it. Was there any point in your life when you wished you had more time to do something? Did you ever wish that you could go back in time and change something?

Time is a very important object, too mysterious to comprehend and yet too simple to transform. We spend time without thinking in our daily lives. It is not apparent to us that we spend time playing sports, enjoying our hobbies, going out with friends and socialising. We also spend time when we watch television, finishing some homework that's due tomorrow and revising for exams.

In many areas of society today, time is a crucial component to being successful. Examples are usch as the world's athletes competing against the time for sprinting, cycling, swimming. A pack of instant noodles tells us how much time it needs to be filled with boiling water till it is cooked. Mobile phone calls are timed, and the longer the call is, the more money it costs. Everyday, everywhere, time exists in watch faces and clocks and they could even be used to time my speech right now.

Without time, things cannot change. There would not be any advancement, or any progress. Without time, seeds of life may not grow into great trees and a baby would never develop into an adult to experience the world. Time is very important as it can accomplish many things that cannot be exchanged with money.

We must realise that we, as humans, only have a limited amount of time. With that being said, we must make sure that we do not regret for not doing what we wanted to, when there was an opportunity. I sincerely hope that this sacrifice of 4 minutes will allow you to treasure your time in the future and spend it more wisely."
- Year 10 English Speech.

Can't help but feeling nostalgic right now...

10 Random thoughts!

1. Can't help thinking that children with rich parents are conceited



2. Wonder where I would be spending my time if I never touched video games


3. Are people really are just that easy-going? maybe I'm too used to talking to people who expect and demand things from you


4. Keep thinking that the smallest observation reveals the greatest meaning


5. Now why did I buy that second battery for my netbook?


6. Reckons I am going to get more blog views this post because there are pictures.


7. I should really chase up people who owe me money but I feel bad


8. Was the glass ever half full in the first place?


9. Will I ever be a pokemon violin master?


10. It would be awesome if I started a company where I hired all my friends.

Life is too complicated.

I hereby give up on you for the time being, world of adults.




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SIMPLICITY:

15 mins of practise on violin each day!
15 mins of exercise each day!
3 meals a day, no creamy/oily/fatty foods! No junk food!
Facebook only for 5 mins each session! No more than 5 logins per day!
Make sure you are doing something for the main part - Stay away from MSN/Facebook/Forums/and unfortunately this blog too.

Life is Simple.

Sometimes I don't understand some people. Or maybe I'm too simple?

1. I am satisfied with fresh orange juice or a dish from my frequently visited restaurants / home dinner
2. I am satisfied with

--unpublished chronicles 18/06/2010

Ominous feeling

Feeling lonely, void of contact.

Feels like I am pushing everyone away from me one by one.

What have I done now?

Why am I worrying over a few things that I typed?

This silence really isn't comfortable.

Fatigued.

I am so very tired, fatigued of what had happened in the last 2 months.

From the self-interpreted prospect of having a relationship, family and relatives commitment, work play and life balancing, academic pressures, student club commitments, mental and emotional growth, maturing and realising that my naive ideals cannot overcome harsh realities in life and commitments to the friendships which I value so - this has literally caused me to crash into a pit of burden.

My eating plan is out of place.
My regular exercise is out of sync.
My study patterns have gone haywire.
My bank balance has increased volatility.
My quest for a job has been totally postponed.

For some reason it just FEELS really busy and tiring... not sure if it really is or not.

I just want some time to game for like a week straight inside my house and be anti-social haha. I need a break from the world somehow, or maybe this is just how life has decided to change itself and I need to be constantly thinking on my feet.

I should jog more often... =)

[9:26:52 PM] was pretty epic
[9:26:55 PM] we were talking about girlbashing
[9:27:01 PM] and peter enters
[9:27:01 PM] and goes
[9:27:04 PM] you guys talking bout vincent?
[9:27:07 PM] we loll'ed

-irrelevant quote ~XD (OR IS IT?)

Play Tifa's Theme from FF7 while reading this, if you have it

So after all that intense exam cram and hermitting, I finally got myself to jog. Started off as a simple expected "one stone two birds" by jogging to a good and close friend's house to grab my watches before jogging back. Soon found out he wasn't at home, but he replied like immediately. I told him that I'd take a jog now and also another one again tomorrow. He didn't reply however and I was somehow expecting him to say "good job" or something along those lines.


After I got my act together, I finally took the first step into the cool, windy breeze of spring (which funnily enough hasn't come since the crazy BEACH WEATHER has come). The sky was all dark by now, but dad's beaming fluorescent bulbs lit the driveway up like a magical road. I stretched and got ready and started light jogging (chicken feet jog as my good friend would call it :] ). To my surprise, as I was turning around corner, I saw this stealthy silhouette silhouette crawling across the wires in the sky. Unfavourable of any physical misshaps, I inched towards the possum carefully as it froze into a stone stiff pose. I took a closer look and confirmed its possum-like identity, but was uncomfortable in running directly under the cable thinking that the possum would leap onto my face and gouge my eyes out (heard of some retarded stories about them). So my plan in the end was to U-Turn and pretend to jog a bit before doing a U-Turn back and jogging up towards my favourite place. The possum had now relocated from its previous state and I safely progressed up.


On the way up I saw many things. Two massive piles of bark/wood chips of different colours, a girl with a blue top and black short skirt waving frantically at a car passing by, another car coming in the opposite direction.... then I finally bump into a dead possum. This one was MUCH LARGER than the previous one, in fact, this one looked AWFULLY FAT. I started squirming and cried out "omg there's a dead possum, WTF?". Luckily nobody was around to reprimand my outburst of profanity.

Continuing across the road to the safe haven aka patch of grass, i began to jog. Half way through my 2nd lap I started to wane in strength and stomach was throbbing with pain. All of a sudden to my disbelief I heard voices in my head. These familiar and warm voices triggered a whole panorama of shots of my memories. "Come on Vincemaaaa, PUSH YOURSELF!", "come on chicken feet!", "BE A MAN VIN-CENT-MA!", "come on Vincent, one more!". As ridiculous as this sounds, I really felt re-energized and my body light weighted. The more of these shots rolled off the film of nostalgia the more watery my eyes started getting. It was a very happy feeling, yet drenched in sadness due to my neglect and lack of notice of these truly great friends.


After my laps I walked around once more to slow down and cool off. While the heart rate calmed down, the energy all went to the tear ducts. I started sulking alone in the windy but quiet night, surrounded by a vast plain of dark blue amongst the shadowed grass. The more I thought about these friends, the more I cried.


I think you guys know who you are! :) I want to seriously really thank you guys from the bottom of my heart for all those times of pushing me to move on, stretching my calves an inch more, inhaling one more breath, taking another step, reaching towards the infinite future lying ahead. Taking me out to do dangerous things that turned out to be just pure awesome! We indeed had many fun times and moments of our lives that will never truly forgotten. Thanks for pushing me to exercise more. Thanks for the advice. Thanks for making my life lively with ridiculous teasing and trying to make me mack on any chick that I speak the name of. Even though I don't have a physical roll of film to document every living moment with you guys, it is etched in my brain at least as deep as the bottom of the deepest oceans. I am also really really sorry for neglecting you guys all along. I realize I should hang out with you guys more often, even if it's just spending time and not having a goal or aim. I never should have said no when you kindly invited me out. Please forgive my naiveness and ignorance. I will make sure to express my appreciation more in the future! :')

I will never forget you guys.

-Vincent Ma, 12/11/2009