Hi everyone,
I have left both many heavy thoughts and fleeting moments recorded in this blog - but I want to have a new fresh start (with the templates too) since my ChatterBox has been spewing out random comments.
The posts made here will not be forgotten - after all, I didn't just spend time to write for no reason!
I will be starting out on a good note here:
Enjoy!
-V
Monday, June 10, 2013
Friday, January 4, 2013
Found another Musical gem: this amazing Japanese Indie band playing もう恋なんてしない
The girl singer (Kei Takebuchi) is especially talented (but the guitarist and the other guy is amazing too, with their harmonies and strumming technique - the guitarist seems SO into it!) with her good English accent which apprently takes years to pick up.
Very nice lyrics to a very nice melody~!
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
2012, another Year of the Dragon
Hi all,
With all the fireworks and countdowns over, I'd like to do a (hopefully) quick recap of the year that was, and this can act as a reminder of how much I got to achieve as a ballpark figure.
In Chronological Order:
January
May:
I have actually filled my ultraman with shiny gold coins now. Since I can't fit anymore in, I will stop looking and asking for gold coins - that can be one of my new year's resolution.
Listening to the latest HK pop, making me feel that way again. Oh my future lady, where are you to be found? Guess I'll just have to keep waiting...
Surviving the end of the world is a good thing :) every additional day we get by is a bonus :)
With all the fireworks and countdowns over, I'd like to do a (hopefully) quick recap of the year that was, and this can act as a reminder of how much I got to achieve as a ballpark figure.
In Chronological Order:
January
- Spent new years with family at Home (looks like I did it again)
- Platinum'd Played Gundam Extreme Vs
- Went on Holiday to HK
- Started new job - everyone knows which day it was ;)
- Clocked FF13-2
- Hung out with friends a lot (yum cha/board games/dinner in city)
- Alvin visited Melb
- Started Orchestra again
- Tushar BBQ - waited till Peter arrived, but was falling asleep bad
- SRW Z2-2
- Attempted day trip planned turned into Wrath of Titans #Random#
- Video Games Symphony unplugged
May:
- Avengers
- MTG Pre-releases
- Graduation Ceremony - lots of Lolzy photos (chicken salt)
- Bro - korean (fail groupon) bbq / movie / teapo / hotpot (stomach ache) / saigon lite
- Visited Alex at Crust Pizza - epic "carribean lamb" pizza
- Phil concert! (missed Heidleberg)
- Passing probation at work :)
- CAS training - one of the best times of the year! Got to stay at Sheraton in KL
- Had many lunches in the city
- I used my phone calendar the most
- DT dinner - and seeing him off to America
- Bumped into Sam Nikitin from primary school
- Weekend trip to Sydney - catchup with Fred, Rob, Anthea, Peter, Will, Ramit
- Spring Concert!
- Dinner in city
- Birthday Dinner / BBQ
- Family Trip to Wilson's Prom :)
- Sohan's part
- Alan's gami chicken farewell dinner
- Proudcts Oscars / Arriving at driveway of A.Vo's party and then going home right away - thanks Lyn you saved my life!!!
- Seeing off Jasmine to Canada
- Roger episode - lots of drama and suspense - he's a good kid
- Surprise Wang Party / Work end of year drinks
- SRW 2nd OG on the PS3!!!
- Alan's house bbq get together
- Mike's BBQ
- Christmas with Bro and his gf :) - Venus Bay pipi catching, pepper lunch, skyfalllll, lots of card games
- NYE spent working and sleeping in bed
- End of year Work BBQ - PECANYA is amazing!
I have actually filled my ultraman with shiny gold coins now. Since I can't fit anymore in, I will stop looking and asking for gold coins - that can be one of my new year's resolution.
Listening to the latest HK pop, making me feel that way again. Oh my future lady, where are you to be found? Guess I'll just have to keep waiting...
Surviving the end of the world is a good thing :) every additional day we get by is a bonus :)
Monday, December 17, 2012
A Night Worth Complaining
I don't usually do this, but I have to rant. Rushed home all the way via public transport, drove out to get to donation centre 2 minutes late. They tell me to sit down, fill some forms - okay, that didn't take much longer than 5-10 minutes. Then the interview process took forever just because I travelled since my last donation to Korea and Malaysia. Ok, that's fine - then they miss the finger prick spot and had to spend 4 times as long to squeeze enough blood for haemoglobin test. STILL OK. Just to top it off, the lady sat there confused for 5 minutes and then asked another nurse to confirm about the extra tests they need to take. Haven't tipped me over yet. What finally did me in was the fact that the nurse sticks the needle in, then mucks around and twirls with it - THEN has the nerve to tell me that it's not in the right vein (pun not intended) and I am let off. Phenomenal waste of time, did not even get to feed the vampires one drop.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Recap on Q2 2012
WOW! It's how fast a month can pass without you knowing!
May:
Neglected:
May:
S BirthdayAvengersAvacyn HelvaultHunger GamesGraduation Ceremony - lots of Lolzy photos (chicken salt)Bro - korean (fail groupon) bbq / movie / teapo / hotpot (stomach ache) / saigo liteCC Dinner
plecan? - Crash crust? - THIS TUESDAY!!!- Weights / Bike - need to keep it up
DT hotpotDark shadowsDemi bdayplan that dinnerPhil concert! (missed Heidleberg)- [blank slot]
Neglected:
- Ohmit - pending
- cow sun - played Dota, but needs IRL
new guy - still pending- limbert - DD never played - still pending
- Do Magic Night?
- HP Books 6 + 7
- Shoes from Bro - then are under my bed
- Super Consolidation - CRAP need to do it
Guitar - took it out, it is out of tune.- Where is the 1.5-1.5 cable? STILL NO EYE-DEER
Printer Toner - $79.00 CPL- CFA Books / Finance refresh
- Weights / Bike
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Recap on Q1 2012
January
- Spent new years at Home
- Played Gundam Extreme Vs (clocked 80+ hours)
- Went on Holiday to HK
- Shouted extended family a meal
- Hung out with E, D, A, G, Ag in HK
- Met up with Terry in HK
- Ivan Farewell
- Watch Daniel Co. Play cricket, hung with Danny
February
- Returned from HK to Home
- Started Orientation/Training
- Grinded FF13-2
- Bought new pants
- Grace board games
- Built Gundams SD
- Stagefright
- Dinner Catchup in City - Robbie Richo Jenny Vic Law Pjays Anton
- Susan Bday
- Yum Cha with Liew Co.
March
- Met up with Alvin in Melb for last time :(
- Helped 3B proofread report
- Lunch with friends at work
- L Started Work
- Went to see Doc about sleep/sweat
- Started Orchestra again
- Tushar BBQ
- Howie Co. BANG^nanagrams x 2
- Carmel String Catchup
April - Mid April
- Built Aegis
- Easter = SRW Z2-2
- Mt. Dandenong turned Wrath of Titans #Random#
- Moved Chips to work daily
- Video Games Symphony unplugged
- Badminton with Sandra
Future:
- S Birthday
- Avengers
- Avacyn Helvault
Neglected:
- Ohmit
- cow sun
- plecan? - Crash crust?
- new guy
- limbert - DD never played
- Do Magic Night?
- HP Books 6 + 7
- Shoes from Bro
- Super Consolidation
- Guitar
- Where is the 1.5-1.5 cable?
- Printer Toner
- CFA Books / Finance refresh
- Weights / Bike
Monday, March 26, 2012
Solitary stubborness!
Sometimes I wonder if I am just naive or I really have something magical about my idealistic enthusiasm. Am I just an "all-talk" "no action" type of guy who screams out self-righteous decrees to boost my own ego and self-confidence?
Why do I still stand by my choices and beliefs despite being disliked for going out of my way to be different? I don't know.
Anyway, as long as I am still alive as an idealistic idiot, I hope to remain that way. If I happen to be the last one remaining when the entire world has forsaken me, so be it - I will die and die alone, knowing that I have stood by own my virtues and reason.
This is the solitary path I am walking.
Why do I still stand by my choices and beliefs despite being disliked for going out of my way to be different? I don't know.
Anyway, as long as I am still alive as an idealistic idiot, I hope to remain that way. If I happen to be the last one remaining when the entire world has forsaken me, so be it - I will die and die alone, knowing that I have stood by own my virtues and reason.
This is the solitary path I am walking.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Attrition (did I use this as a subject before?)
As the word suggests, Attrition is currently happening to many areas of my life.
With this new phase finally beginning, it's about time to re-asses some certain things in life. The attrition here is "time". So what I've noticed myself thinking about is:
Where am I? --> Where do I want to be? --> How do I get there? --> What paths can I take? --> Which path would be the best?
I guess I am always a sucker for spending time in spelling my thoughts out, and I don't really know where to start. Currently I would still say i'm transitioning slowly into the next stage, with heavy sorrows as I left behind the previous chapter.
I would not say that I have been off to a good start. Minus the first impressions, it is always said that time will be the test to everything - and certainly it has been testing me so. I am so glad that I have bumped into various people during this latest change of my life - they have given me new perspective and have been indirectly reinforcing the reality that I need to grow up.
What I don't understand is, why am I so afraid of being tested on a results/outcome basis when I have always been able to achieve that? Is it because now the situation is different and I don't have my accumulated experience with me to use? How come I can never feel confident about what I'm doing?
Too many questions.
Too much regret?
On the side line, certain levels of interactivity have been dropping as of late, and I fear that maybe people are finally getting tired of my eccentricities. I know that I am cheap, but I have always felt that there was something else in me that outshined all my negative qualities. If the fact that I will remain cheap causes harm to the friendships that I hold dear then I will really be put into a dilemma.
On one hand, I do not want to throw away my character, my personality which I have been so adamant in maintaining and standing by it. On the other, I realistically assess lifestyle and notice that there is no need for me to spend more than I require - as this is not my source of happiness.
A friend told me to "reward myself" and I do, just not in the way that usual people do. Spending money has never been a hobby or activity of enjoyment of mine. Just being able to get what I want from a humble sense is enough. I never really ask or want more. I fear that if I did ever let myself spend more than I need to - even just once, it would be enough to shake the grounds which my expectations were build upon. From then on, i'll spend more and my standards will increase, meaning that the expenditure will need to keep up with the standards to maintain satisfaction levles. This eventually would turn into a vicious cycle and one day I am going to fall down and hurt myself with the lack of satisfaction that I perceive at the time.
That is why I am afraid. If we spin too fast, we will spin out of orbit and lose track of our original center of gravity.
Anyways, I am probably thinking too much. I just hope that when I wake up tomorrow morning I can feel all energised again.
P.s. I miss you mum, come home soon.
With this new phase finally beginning, it's about time to re-asses some certain things in life. The attrition here is "time". So what I've noticed myself thinking about is:
Where am I? --> Where do I want to be? --> How do I get there? --> What paths can I take? --> Which path would be the best?
I guess I am always a sucker for spending time in spelling my thoughts out, and I don't really know where to start. Currently I would still say i'm transitioning slowly into the next stage, with heavy sorrows as I left behind the previous chapter.
I would not say that I have been off to a good start. Minus the first impressions, it is always said that time will be the test to everything - and certainly it has been testing me so. I am so glad that I have bumped into various people during this latest change of my life - they have given me new perspective and have been indirectly reinforcing the reality that I need to grow up.
What I don't understand is, why am I so afraid of being tested on a results/outcome basis when I have always been able to achieve that? Is it because now the situation is different and I don't have my accumulated experience with me to use? How come I can never feel confident about what I'm doing?
Too many questions.
Too much regret?
On the side line, certain levels of interactivity have been dropping as of late, and I fear that maybe people are finally getting tired of my eccentricities. I know that I am cheap, but I have always felt that there was something else in me that outshined all my negative qualities. If the fact that I will remain cheap causes harm to the friendships that I hold dear then I will really be put into a dilemma.
On one hand, I do not want to throw away my character, my personality which I have been so adamant in maintaining and standing by it. On the other, I realistically assess lifestyle and notice that there is no need for me to spend more than I require - as this is not my source of happiness.
A friend told me to "reward myself" and I do, just not in the way that usual people do. Spending money has never been a hobby or activity of enjoyment of mine. Just being able to get what I want from a humble sense is enough. I never really ask or want more. I fear that if I did ever let myself spend more than I need to - even just once, it would be enough to shake the grounds which my expectations were build upon. From then on, i'll spend more and my standards will increase, meaning that the expenditure will need to keep up with the standards to maintain satisfaction levles. This eventually would turn into a vicious cycle and one day I am going to fall down and hurt myself with the lack of satisfaction that I perceive at the time.
That is why I am afraid. If we spin too fast, we will spin out of orbit and lose track of our original center of gravity.
Anyways, I am probably thinking too much. I just hope that when I wake up tomorrow morning I can feel all energised again.
P.s. I miss you mum, come home soon.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Round 3: Tutti!
16/11/2011,
This will become a major milestone in the future when looking back upon the past successes of lifetimes. May this final score movement to the sonata of the academy finish up in a grand and boisterous motion!
Mental note: write up achievements list
..........AND SO IT HAS ENDED! FK YEAH!!!!!!! lol!
My personal achievement list:
√ 33 Exams
√ Ate all the fried chicken on campus
√ Ate all the pizza on campus
√ Met a person from every faculty
√ Wasted first year in the pool room + point blank
√ Lost and found USB again
√ Rocked up to exam without ID card and wallet
√ Left exam 1 hour early
√ Went through highschool without getting a single non-whole-class detention
√ Never wagged a class all through to the end of high school
√ Stayed and crashed overnight in Bld 26 Labs
√ Taught, and been taught in the same uni
√ Carpooled with Dad to uni(LOL)
√ Travelled to uni via my own car, friend's car, bus 742/737/the huntingdale one, walked by feet from wellington/springvale
√ Joined uni clubs of academic, social, activity types
√ Played violin in front of menzies (although very quiet) and up in grain express
√ Bought salt and spicy fish and ate with friend's rice
√ had epic pumpkin soup on campus
√
√ ... to be continued
This will become a major milestone in the future when looking back upon the past successes of lifetimes. May this final score movement to the sonata of the academy finish up in a grand and boisterous motion!
Mental note: write up achievements list
..........AND SO IT HAS ENDED! FK YEAH!!!!!!! lol!
My personal achievement list:
√ 33 Exams
√ Ate all the fried chicken on campus
√ Ate all the pizza on campus
√ Met a person from every faculty
√ Wasted first year in the pool room + point blank
√ Lost and found USB again
√ Rocked up to exam without ID card and wallet
√ Left exam 1 hour early
√ Went through highschool without getting a single non-whole-class detention
√ Never wagged a class all through to the end of high school
√ Stayed and crashed overnight in Bld 26 Labs
√ Taught, and been taught in the same uni
√ Carpooled with Dad to uni(LOL)
√ Travelled to uni via my own car, friend's car, bus 742/737/the huntingdale one, walked by feet from wellington/springvale
√ Joined uni clubs of academic, social, activity types
√ Played violin in front of menzies (although very quiet) and up in grain express
√ Bought salt and spicy fish and ate with friend's rice
√ had epic pumpkin soup on campus
√
√ ... to be continued
Monday, November 14, 2011
Round 2: FIGHT
Professor GAY vs Student
*Plays guile's theme*
EDIT:
MASTER GAY THREE HUNDRED MARK EXAM???
Also forgot my wallet at an exam for the first time, thought i would get ousted rofl but it all went well towards the end.
10 minutes left: everyone was racing and turning pages and scribbling
*Plays guile's theme*
EDIT:
MASTER GAY THREE HUNDRED MARK EXAM???
Also forgot my wallet at an exam for the first time, thought i would get ousted rofl but it all went well towards the end.
10 minutes left: everyone was racing and turning pages and scribbling
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Round 1: IKUZEE
ALRIGHT LET'S DO THIS!
MAD SPRINT FOR THE LAST TIME!
Trusty Bag + Jacket, please work wonders!
MAD SPRINT FOR THE LAST TIME!
Trusty Bag + Jacket, please work wonders!
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Potential idea...?
Dear world,
I thought about this the other day - what if someone designed a way to "store" the compliments coming from others and able to release them day by day to you and not 'expending' it all in one go, wouldn't everyone be able to stay happy and positive and confident for a much longer time?
I thought about this the other day - what if someone designed a way to "store" the compliments coming from others and able to release them day by day to you and not 'expending' it all in one go, wouldn't everyone be able to stay happy and positive and confident for a much longer time?
Friday, November 4, 2011
Lest we forget.
In honour of the ongoing tradition for remembering the valiant efforts of the men (+women) of past. Dont' forget to drop by your local shopping centre and buy a poppy from a veteran/their family members!
In relation to this topic, I must say I love reminiscing, to the point that even while looking back at failures of life it feels enjoyable.
Overhearing mum's talk with my aunt commenting on my relationship status was not comforting. Seems she has mighty expectations of me in that I am not incapable of getting into a relationship, oh dear how she will be disappoitned.
Sorry my fellow readers, but while I am over the whole girl hate/rage phase I have to say it feels as if I was using that as an excuse to shield myself away from this relationship business. At a recent gathering with friends all was going well, jolly jokes and friendly and hilarious doodles all across walls, smashing down american honey and eating lots of chicken wings - life just couldn't be better, until the realisation that there is certain truth pertaining to jokes that people make.
Of notice one of the cartoons someone drew was a troll-face of "forever alone" and some captions of "that guy will never get a girlfriend" So I thought about this: the reason why people joke about certain things is because they intrinsicly believe in the joke's inner truth, but are too afraid of hurting others in saying it.
I asked another friend while in a drunken state why "they" drew things like that, and I was told because they enjoy my reaction towards it. My reaction is: I'm not mad at anyone, I really am - even though I feel sad as it is yet another reminder of one of the areas in life which I failed continuously at.
Certain friends play the "encouraging" card and try to persuade me to go back into "the game" but I gotta say, I've come to understand a few things about my core character and personality that absolutely do not work with the current social state of the dating market.
Some chick friends say all these things (dw I'm not into them so it's not utmost tragic) like "oh you're so nice" and "you're husband material" - honestly all a load of crap lol. They don't know what I am like, how ignorant these females are. All I can give is honesty, moral uptightness, a little bit of humour, complete and utter loyalty (if it ever gets to the stage), financial security, sense of responsibility and duty, family-focused mentality and crazy geek passions. I won't have any height, muscle or fashion sense though.
I looked back at some old archives of what happened last time - I have to say I am so disgusted at myself for what I have done, I was stupid, being an idiot, completely ignorant and unaware of the things as I got blinded hard by my head-over-heels state. Anyways, that's the last we will see of it - sorry to disappoint mum, but I can't guarantee you grandchildren - you'll have to look to your other more useful son for that.
In relation to this topic, I must say I love reminiscing, to the point that even while looking back at failures of life it feels enjoyable.
Overhearing mum's talk with my aunt commenting on my relationship status was not comforting. Seems she has mighty expectations of me in that I am not incapable of getting into a relationship, oh dear how she will be disappoitned.
Sorry my fellow readers, but while I am over the whole girl hate/rage phase I have to say it feels as if I was using that as an excuse to shield myself away from this relationship business. At a recent gathering with friends all was going well, jolly jokes and friendly and hilarious doodles all across walls, smashing down american honey and eating lots of chicken wings - life just couldn't be better, until the realisation that there is certain truth pertaining to jokes that people make.
Of notice one of the cartoons someone drew was a troll-face of "forever alone" and some captions of "that guy will never get a girlfriend" So I thought about this: the reason why people joke about certain things is because they intrinsicly believe in the joke's inner truth, but are too afraid of hurting others in saying it.
I asked another friend while in a drunken state why "they" drew things like that, and I was told because they enjoy my reaction towards it. My reaction is: I'm not mad at anyone, I really am - even though I feel sad as it is yet another reminder of one of the areas in life which I failed continuously at.
Certain friends play the "encouraging" card and try to persuade me to go back into "the game" but I gotta say, I've come to understand a few things about my core character and personality that absolutely do not work with the current social state of the dating market.
- I am not an Extrovert - meaning I don't enthusiastically go out of my way to talk to girls at generic places where they get "picked up"
- My appreciation of reviewing the past and immersing myself with reminiscence will keep me firmly stationed at the friend zone and I can't move on
- My firm belief of helping people in need no matter who they are or what benefit/cost it is to me concretely locks me into the role of "sideline guy"
- OK this one's a mystery to me as I don't poke my nose into this topic and it's just purely embarassing to talk about - I don't really share the same urges of the whole "sex" thing, different sources have given me different impressions on how young people operate in relationships relating to sex but I have no idea as I come from the conservative race of Asians.
- I simply can't have extended conversations with poeple over a continuous contact of over 6 or 7 hours. I NEED A BREAK from them. Heh, so much for thinking I'm good at commitment.
- My instinct is to place myself in first priority, dead centre of attention - as such, I probably can't take care of the other half or project that selfless role needed in a relationship
- I always start my meetings with people on a pure and natural friendship - apparently females sort guys out into the potential/friendzone types straight away, which means I'll always been in the friend zone
- I am cheap. and proud of it! - major turn off as I have heard, sorry but this ain't changing because I get enjoyment out of being cheap. I want people to know that however a conundrum exists because I am willing to spend every last dollar and my sweat and blood and dedicate all my time to a person - only if they prove worthy of it and I can be sure of that. I guess the world doesn't work like that. Have to risk losing that money to check whether they are the worthy one, lol.
Some chick friends say all these things (dw I'm not into them so it's not utmost tragic) like "oh you're so nice" and "you're husband material" - honestly all a load of crap lol. They don't know what I am like, how ignorant these females are. All I can give is honesty, moral uptightness, a little bit of humour, complete and utter loyalty (if it ever gets to the stage), financial security, sense of responsibility and duty, family-focused mentality and crazy geek passions. I won't have any height, muscle or fashion sense though.
I looked back at some old archives of what happened last time - I have to say I am so disgusted at myself for what I have done, I was stupid, being an idiot, completely ignorant and unaware of the things as I got blinded hard by my head-over-heels state. Anyways, that's the last we will see of it - sorry to disappoint mum, but I can't guarantee you grandchildren - you'll have to look to your other more useful son for that.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Stuck in IT.
Oh maaaaaaaaan. After all that's happened I thought I had improved. Darn banks, why have you have all upped your standards so high? What does it take to punch through into the industry?
Kind Regards,
Wishful Finance Graduate.
Kind Regards,
Wishful Finance Graduate.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Subjugated Interactions
So after some question posting and busying myself with some TVB episodes, I acquired an urge to write a small post.
How is it wrong to keep helping and be nice to a person even though your intention has changed since the beginning? I understand that from another's perspective that I am "being used", but does that make it justified if I am simply cool with it? How is this different from helping the people who you meet which you became good friends with?
Why must the "past" always be there to haunt us in the future? Why can't people see and understand that times have changed and the interaction is now different to before? Or are human beings just truly nostalgic creatures who will always be affected by past emotions and memories?
But also a good question to ask myself is, "why do you still bother?"
I came up with the proposal that maybe I want to show the world that I am not that type of realistic person who will stop doing nice things for people even though my interest in them has ceased, especially if it's the opposite gender. I don't think of it as a practical "benefits" vs "cost" thing, it's just a uni-directional love of helping people and leaving as many positive memories for people as long as I can before my time on this Earth runs out. I feel this is a very bad attitude, we can change this. I want to hold that innocence tightly, and hope people don't look down on me or speak ill of me.
Sure, my decision may deem me the "loser" of the struggle, but in the end, as long as we are happy with our lives and can be responsible of our actions, there really isn't any shame.
How is it wrong to keep helping and be nice to a person even though your intention has changed since the beginning? I understand that from another's perspective that I am "being used", but does that make it justified if I am simply cool with it? How is this different from helping the people who you meet which you became good friends with?
Why must the "past" always be there to haunt us in the future? Why can't people see and understand that times have changed and the interaction is now different to before? Or are human beings just truly nostalgic creatures who will always be affected by past emotions and memories?
But also a good question to ask myself is, "why do you still bother?"
I came up with the proposal that maybe I want to show the world that I am not that type of realistic person who will stop doing nice things for people even though my interest in them has ceased, especially if it's the opposite gender. I don't think of it as a practical "benefits" vs "cost" thing, it's just a uni-directional love of helping people and leaving as many positive memories for people as long as I can before my time on this Earth runs out. I feel this is a very bad attitude, we can change this. I want to hold that innocence tightly, and hope people don't look down on me or speak ill of me.
Sure, my decision may deem me the "loser" of the struggle, but in the end, as long as we are happy with our lives and can be responsible of our actions, there really isn't any shame.
Monday, August 29, 2011
1 bps = $24????
Fock. Marking to market and excel spreadsheets. wtf you ask us to calculate a value in the column by subtracting a cell from 100? after that what's the use of it? goddam your vagueness! WHY IS THERE NO MARGIN CALL?!?! need more basis points.
nooooooooooooooooooooooo
I must be doing wrong.
Damn it's due Friday.
EDIT:
2/3 of assignment done... well actually more like 1/3 since the last part is a bitch/monster to do... HEDGING FUTURE CONTRACTS ARGH. DAMN YOU S&P/ASX200!!!!!
nooooooooooooooooooooooo
I must be doing wrong.
Damn it's due Friday.
EDIT:
2/3 of assignment done... well actually more like 1/3 since the last part is a bitch/monster to do... HEDGING FUTURE CONTRACTS ARGH. DAMN YOU S&P/ASX200!!!!!
Monday, August 22, 2011
Time Limit
Life is short and wonderful. It teaches many lessons, of what is wrong and right, of what is good and bad. It also shows us what we are proficient at, and other areas which we are not.
People were born with dreams and hopes for everything, but as we journey and travel through time, we realise we some of these dreams may not be fulfilled - but we don't give up on life, we merely re-shape our ideals and ambitions so that we can live in another purposeful way, keeping that flaming spirit burning brightly from within. It is a sad true fact that I have progressively discarded goal upon goal to reach my current state of progress, but on the bright side, I have fewer things to focus on and more energy to invest into those few things - hopefully being able to outperform others.
It is sad that in life there exists "opportunity cost", but in the end what was missed out does not matter - the only things that matter is what you have done, what achievements you have made, and by what standard of integrity you were able to keep with the people who exist in your life. As mentioned before, I do hope I can channel my sweat and blood into the increasingly small number of things I potential left to excel in. Hopefully I can outperform others in the few things that I do best - at least I won't end up as a jack of all trades.
From my younger years, I used to have different goals and targets in life. But now I have changed, some call it being cynical, some call it growing up and maturing towards this life of "realism". The notion that I die alone is no longer an impossibility - as unfair as the statistics show, I may die younger by a significant amount of years - but that doesn't matter. I have long accepted the ideal of natural selection: if I die earlier, then that means I have fulfilled my role at that point in time and the world no longer needs me. This is not to say that I am going to throw away my life, I will still live on resiliently, reaching for the stars, going out to bring "Net Positive" to society. Even if the life I lead will be short, at least it will be a productive and meaningful life.
Even within a shorter Time Limit, I hope to do greater things and provide a greater net return to society than others who may live a longer life.
People were born with dreams and hopes for everything, but as we journey and travel through time, we realise we some of these dreams may not be fulfilled - but we don't give up on life, we merely re-shape our ideals and ambitions so that we can live in another purposeful way, keeping that flaming spirit burning brightly from within. It is a sad true fact that I have progressively discarded goal upon goal to reach my current state of progress, but on the bright side, I have fewer things to focus on and more energy to invest into those few things - hopefully being able to outperform others.
It is sad that in life there exists "opportunity cost", but in the end what was missed out does not matter - the only things that matter is what you have done, what achievements you have made, and by what standard of integrity you were able to keep with the people who exist in your life. As mentioned before, I do hope I can channel my sweat and blood into the increasingly small number of things I potential left to excel in. Hopefully I can outperform others in the few things that I do best - at least I won't end up as a jack of all trades.
From my younger years, I used to have different goals and targets in life. But now I have changed, some call it being cynical, some call it growing up and maturing towards this life of "realism". The notion that I die alone is no longer an impossibility - as unfair as the statistics show, I may die younger by a significant amount of years - but that doesn't matter. I have long accepted the ideal of natural selection: if I die earlier, then that means I have fulfilled my role at that point in time and the world no longer needs me. This is not to say that I am going to throw away my life, I will still live on resiliently, reaching for the stars, going out to bring "Net Positive" to society. Even if the life I lead will be short, at least it will be a productive and meaningful life.
Even within a shorter Time Limit, I hope to do greater things and provide a greater net return to society than others who may live a longer life.
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